Raining Heavily....

A Special Moment

The moment now ~ I forgot to hide my loneliness~

Raining so heavily~ Can i just run out to take a shower ?

Wash away my sadness~ Wash away something that I'm not belong too...

Things never go smooth ~ Whatever how you forced yourself ~

This is the moment again ~ The moment I'm thinking of you~

Suppose to take a rest after class...And i just can't sleep well...everything is still clear and fresh in my mind...

How to stop all this feeling ? I did try to work hard on my assignments...hanging out with my classmates...just to forget something that is not real...

Unfortunally, that moment is real .and i want it belongs to me...But I'm keep telling myself  That I'm BAD.. I'm BAD..

There is something that I haven't settle... It this the reason of Why ?

Time is too limited... You are so limited...

How much I appreciate the moment that I'm with you...

Although I am not a special in this world...But you are special to me...

Until today... I don't even know how to start a conversation with u anymore...

The feeling keep telling me...you are trying to....stay away from me....

I pretend like nothing~ pretend like .....hehe haha hoho.....

My god~ Is that me ? come on ..... I dont like this feeling....

I want the special feeling just for me from you....will it still posible ?

Raining still heavily ~ my shoe is dry inside my room ~

Once rainning ~ shoe get wet ~ Can fill in water too....

I really save this save that ~can wear just wear it ~can eat just eat it ~

When until the certain time~ everything is time to say bye bye~

shoes , shirts , handphone.....

Where to get my salary ?To buy a shoe for myself ?

I not dare to ask for money from parents... I just can't... I know my dad and mom ...trying thier best to earn money...I just know that I can't do anything for them when they are facing financial problem...

Where is the warm hug ? 

Where are you ?

And I am here....

Will you be there for me ?

I wish to tell you that 

''good morning''

'' must eat on time ya''

''Becareful when driving''

''Don't fall asleep infront the pc''

'' Drink more water''

''Remember to .....reply my message''

Everyday in my life...

Isit a time to stop this everything before I settle my problem now ?

Would you please ......Don't go away ?

Just tell me that I am not alone.... I am not....

Now.... Im telling you in my heart... Did u hear me....?