我流下寂寞的眼泪～I cried the moment I woke up just now~

空虚的打击

刚才小睡了一会～

醒来过后～

心来了一股不舒服的感觉～

我不知道为什么～

那种感觉涌上了我的眼睛～

结果就是哭了出来～

我此时觉得很空虚很空虚～

不知如何形容那种感觉～

或许就是那个习惯吧～

我觉得～

很难戒掉～

在人面前装没事～

对自己说没什么大不了～

朋友问我～

决定好了吗？决定了就不要后悔～

我想说的是～

我决定好了～但我不保证我能戒得掉～

到处都是他的的影子～

要怎么习惯一个人生活～

原来我没以前那么坚强～

原来我很寂寞～

遇到开心的事～

很自然～

我却跑去告诉他～

多可笑～

当一个人想回去的时候～

为什么会这样呢～

对～

我是不能原谅他伤害过我～

但我忘记不到～

他对我的好～

一切都成了习惯～

已经不想一个人留在这间房间里了～

感觉上～都是一个人在面对所有的事～

还以为我说分手～

真的不会那么伤心～

原来强忍了三个星期～

我还是哭了～

可能就是忍太久～

所以还是哭的很够力～

哈哈～原来我也很傻～

还以为自己很理智～

背后却那么微弱～

很可笑咯～

在那里装什么坚强～

最后还是自己幸苦～

下一步～

我该怎么走下去～

我真的不知道～

Raining heavily = Tears so heavy

Raining heavily today~No one can control the rain~

Just like my tears~

Im walking alone on the road~Cold wind blows my inner heart~

Doesn't mean anything~

Im alone again~

Can't find a better place~ To hide my sadness~

The only way is~ be happy ~hide my sadness behind the happiness~

Without caring~ Im weak~

Im just a normal girl~

Which full of different faces to facing the future~

Trying her hard to be tough~

But doesn't mean she is a wonder woman~

I need a hug ~

a warm hug that I really belongs to~

But~ where ?

Will you be there for me ?

I don't want to walk alone~

No way~

Hope everything go smooth tomorrow for my advertising presentation....I must cheer up myself to be clear now....Try to avoid...Try my best to avoid....I wish that I can do it....Today's moral presentation are too bad....Why people can do well on their presentation...Why I always nervous all the time and blank when teacher asking for the question....Second year already....Im still dont even know how to prepare well in my presentation...I did put effort....is maybe not enough at all....

Don't give up Eshen ~ Don't give up !

I need music now ~ Listening An Honest Mistake's songs to ''LAP''all my sadness away !

Stand up again and face the REALITY~

e.n.d